01/01/2013

Dear Diary,

I think I'm in a mess right now.  I fall for some wrong guy.  A guy that I wouldn't think of falling with.  A guy who doesn't even care about me.  I am so so stupid.  I think I had enough of this shit.  I shall let him be what he wants to be.  I am tired of wondering what is he thinking about.  I am tired to think that he still likes me.  He doesn't any more.  I am the only one who still holding on.  I am the one who just couldn't let go.  But now, new year, new me.  I shouldn't be that stupid any more.  I should let him go.  He doesn't deserves my time.  He is such a waste of time.  If he likes me, he will spend some time on me and not always having a excuses saying that he is busy and tired after work. If a guy like a girl, no matter how busy he is, he will still take his little wee bit of his time to spend with her.  He ain't doing that at all.  Even when you are talking to him, he wasn't even paying attention and he always cut you off half way.  Do you think he still likes you?!

Chia Ying Pin, he is a jerk and a dickhead.  When it's the first date you are having with him and he actually forgotten and let you waited for him for 3 hours.  Do you think he likes you?  Obviously not!  Don't be stupid.  Even if both of you end up together, your family and friends wouldn't accept him.  So, DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME!  HE DOES NOT WORTH IT! Be strong! New year, new you! <3  Love you always. :)

Signed off,

DONE WITH EVERYTHING STUPID.

03/03/2012

Dear Diary,

When I heard all the songs that I heard during the year when he's with me, makes me recall everything. That year is the most beautiful year that I ever live. Sigh, when will I meet someone like him? Dear diary, he has a girlfriend right now. I wonder if she is a Hong Kong-nese or a Malaysian? If she is from HongKong, I dont think they will ever break up cause as you know HongKong people loves money so so much. She won't let him go if she knows that he's rich. Who will..

Dear God,

Hope you can hear my pray. I really like him. I just want him to be with me. It has been a year plus, we still did not see each other since I left Malaysia. I really wanted to ask him whether did he ever think of me or interested in me when he met me. But maybe this is fate. I really have nothing to add now. All I want is him right now. Dear God, please hear my pray. please~~

13/01/2012

Dear Diary,

Hopefully this new year is a better year for me. My new year resolutions are:

• Being sophisticated.
• be a smart women that a classy guy will looks up to.
• Be someone who knows every piece of everything.
• Generally, be a successful women that can carry herself in the upper class society. (My whole life resolution)

Today I came through some of the popular group friends and I really do wish that I am them. They some how looks like their futures are something like having a sports car with a huge house, dress pretty all the time and a perfect soul mate. After looking through their photos and their friends around them, somehow you will know that they will have a successful life rather like me, mixing with average or below average people.. I was wondering, why do I end up with these kind of people. I want something that is higher than that, but I just can't fit in. I wanted to fit in! I want to be the one who looks pretty all the time, carrying a branded bag, going to some fancy restaurant and staying in a fancy place. It's depressing.. It's not like I do not like my life, is just that I want something better.. Please God, please grand this wish for me, for once makes it granted. I love you God but why do you have to make me lost faith in you? Do I not worthy to you? :/

Besides of moaning about my life, I think of Woo Yi Ming again. He is like my advance ticket to my dream life. Is not like I dont like him but his money, I DO like him. In fact, I LOVE HIM! For now, I won't mind that he doesnt show any interest in me anymore, but please give me someone who is almost like him. Why do you have to send guys who is below my quality? Why? Am I really that not worthy to you? Hmmm.. Please dont let me lost faith in you!